Controlled Chaos

I heard that phrase the other day and I had a light bulb moment. aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh. controlled chaos, eh? That describes my life perfectly right now. Soooooo much has been going on and so little at the same time, if that makes any sense. Let me explain, a lot of things that I didn't want to happen haven been happening and nothing that I NEED to happen has taken place.

If it wasn't for God's control, I would probably be in a crazy home somewhere. The devil has been working overtime in my life and i'm not sure why. But I hold on and I stay prayed up and I know that this storm in my life is just temporary and something bigger and better is gonna present itself.

For almost a year my life has been an absolute hell. things have gone from bad to worse and i'm afraid that the worst is around the corner ....on that note let me take a moment to say a little prayer (take 5 mins)

ok, anyway i'm in a stable environment, (i hope) maybe i'll be able to blog and talk more. I've gotta get back to being the old me. I've gained weight, lost hair and came really close to losing my mind. but thank God I'm still here!!!!!!!!!

So I want to say to anyone that passes by this blog, please say a prayer for me. It's much appreciated.

peace and love